My Muse brought me something new today

Hello, readers! I’ve been busy with Infinity, getting about halfway, and I am enjoying the writing process so far.

I had to take a break starting about five days ago, though- I have been dealing with some fairly difficult psychological stuff. I think I made a breakthrough this evening. I certainly feel better now than I have for days.

In all of this, I have renewed interest in a couple of ideas for stories dealing with some of my more frightening thoughts, which I believe I’ve blogged about before. Nemesis is one of those- it’s the story of how a person like me, who is vulnerable to lies and deception (I tend to distort reality and so have a hard time believing odd things really happen) is preyed upon by someone she barely knows, for a “crime” she hardly remembers, it was so trivial a thing to her. This main character’s nemesis is someone skilled at psychological manipulation and she slanders the main character quite often to manipulate others into attacking- and this has the added benefit of hiding who is really behind all the attacks. For many years now I have dealt with ideas that someone of this sort has been attacking me, and so after I’m finished with Infinity I am going to write Nemesis.

I still have to work on a third story of mine, brought about by very disturbing visions I had a year or two ago, of being stalked by a mentally ill person. This one is different slightly from Nemesis in that the stalker is a full-blown psychopath, and the victim thinks all the bizarre things that are said and done in her presence were imagined, at least at first. This idea is a little less defined than Nemesis as it is based on a smaller series of dreams, and I may fold bits of these two story ideas into one. This one is a lot more difficult to think about, and I may never be able to write it.

These new story ideas, disturbing as they are, were brought up to me again tonight by my Muse, who has been talking to me (not literally, but you know what I mean) nonstop for the past five days. I’ve had these ideas, and I’ve had a few personal revelations which have been very life-affirming and beneficial for me, so all is well, at least for now.

I hope to get back to Infinity this week, and make further progress on it. So far I have over 30,000 words.

Thanks for reading!