Dear readers- I’m not even sure how many of you there are as subscribers, but I want you to know I value all of you very much.
I’ve had a difficult month or so, and I’ve been focusing on important paperwork as well as self-care, now that my work for my science lab is done with (as far as I know). I did mean last weekend to work on a podcast for my series, this one about clinical trials. I just became overwhelmed with what felt a lot like traumatic memory and instead of shoving these aside to focus on something else, I decided to sit quietly with this information, and just listen to what sorts of ideas or memories would come surfacing.
I’ve gotten a lot of information. A LOT. And it was very useful. I have a ton of ideas all layered like an onion, and I can’t really give away the basic premise but it’s just brilliant and now I have a season finale for my possible series October 6th. I had one but this one might be better. I am just brimming with ideas for new slants to stories.
I also have come to terms with some personal growth, and I for one feel very much like the exercises I went through (focusing on what my psyche was trying to tell me, sitting quietly with my thoughts many times, and just paying attention to clues from my subconscious- images, impressions, phrases, just instead of imprinting meaning on them, trying on a variety of meanings and then letting them percolate; and also, musing over what seemed to me to be an ever-evolving storyline about my past and my family) were useful. I have realized a few things about my family, and my place in it.
I also have realized a few things about some of the cruelty I endured as a child, both real cruelty and other forms that seem unreal and occurred later in my life, but are not out of the realms of possibility. I have realized that there was always an unspoken message in much of it, an assumption of knowledge on my part about certain events that I lacked.
I’m making inquiries about that. I feel very much like the process of sitting with and listening to my thoughts, particularly the more traumatic ones, and following chains of thought and then analyzing logically what they may mean in terms of real world events, has paid off.
In the meantime, for fiction, I’ve been inspired by some of the writing advice of Stephen King, and also writing advice from Chuck Wendig. Both these guys have a lot of great things to say about the process of writing, and in particular, one major idea: get your butt in the chair and write. Just do it, write. Stop procrastinating.
I’ve got a lot of writing ahead of me. My stories will not write themselves. And I now have a new slant on an entry into what I am calling the Diamond Series, a set of quasi-autobiographical stories loosely based on my life, and it’s a doozy. Title TBA. I am tempted to call this one The Child from Omelas, an homage to Ursula LeGuin.